In our lifetime we will all have that one person who teaches us a valuable lesson in love. This person comes along to break our heart to crack to open our awareness to self love, self worth, and self value. This person unveils the pattern we have been in when it pertains to love relationship. It’s the first awakening in a twin flame journey.
I had this first awakening ears before I met my DM. I was in love with someone who was in and out and very hot and cold. He only came around when it suited him for attention. I thought if I was patient and gave him the attention he was seeking from me he would want to commit. I knew it was wrong, I felt it strongly. I ignored my intuition and signs. I became needy and pushy with him. He texted me a harsh message saying he was not looking for anything serious and admitted he used me. He gave the BS story that he needed to be single. I asked him if there was someone else and he said no. That was a lie because I ran into them together after that. #awkward
For 6 months I cried over him. I asked for a reason why. I blamed myself. After 6 months I awoke to the pattern in my love relationships that led up to this devastating heartbreak. I saw that I always attracted emotionally unavailable men who I let use me and take advantage of my kindness. I always pushed away the emotionally stable men. I also had that low vibration guy friend who I was not interested in yet always hung out with him and he cock blocked these men too.
I saw the lesson and is why I now refer to him as My Lesson. :) I then told myself that I would never chase another man. I wanted an equal give and take in a relationship that would be a deep connection. I would dream of the man I would meet who would be the one. I did date one guy in between my lesson and meeting my DM. The signs were there that we were not a fit so I broke it off. I listened to my intuition and was proud of myself. I did get a lot of grief from mutual friends who gave me a hard time because they thought we were “perfect together”. We had no communication and I wanted a deep connection that was spiritual. I told them I know what I was looking for and stayed true to myself. I refused to settle.
When I met my DM I felt the urge in the beginning to be my “old self”but I resisted. I felt the connection but knew intuitively he wasn’t 100% sure. When he ran, I knew chasing after him would take me back to the place I was prior to My Lesson.
I decided to walk away to find my own path. This lead me to learn my final lesson which was aligning to my true life purpose, awakening to my psychic/empath abilities, and coming into union with myself. I’ve never been happier than I am right now and can’t wait to see what is up next.